I’m really scared right now
I dont even know why
I have most of my demo reel done, everything else I need to do will only take a day at most.
but this whole over whelming fear is taking over me
I dont know what to do
or who to talk to
I cant stop crying and shaking
people are telling me to stop stressing but I cant help it
I just dont want to think anymore
1 more week of school
then I’ll never have to look back again
I wonder how many friends I’ll lose
I wonder if I’ll even get a job
they tell me the most important thing is to never give up, even so its hard not to give up when even your best isnt good enough
honestly I dont know who I’m freaking out… I’m in a much better place then some of the others
if this keeps up though…. I’m going to run away from everything.
in fact today.. I didnt go to school till 5… normally I go at 11
I’m already starting to run away from everything.
ugh life is gross